Sunday, February 27, 2011

LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL

          I went to the Waterfront to see "Unknown" with Mike.  I was very early so I went to Borders and looked at books on Buddhism and meditation.  Seems, as I thought I've been meditating for most of my life and never realized.  Now I am more focused and conscious of what I am doing.  It used to be an accidental act of self preservation.  Now it is a purposeful act of  relaxation, centering, and...  still sometimes self preservation.

        Mike called and we got out tickets.  We were still very early so we walked around window shopping. It was fun walking into King's Jewelers and walking up to the jewelry section in Macy's.  The looks we got were just precious.  The fact that it was me who wanted to go in is a semi-breakthrough.  Sort of the flaunt the gay thing.  Making myself visible.  Who knows maybe I will not shun PRIDE this year.  (I need a lot of support to venture out to PRIDE...   hint....   hint.  We spent some time at Border's looking for the gay section which seems to have disappeared from most of them.  Learning what books someone picks up to peruse is a decent way to learn more about them.

          The movie (Unknown) was great.  Kind of a typical Liam Neeson great performance.  Nice twist ending per usual.  We plann to see a sci fi movie later in March (Battleground LA or something like that).  One of my pet peeves is parents who bring young children to movies who wail and cry.  I don't understand the concept of taking a < 1 year old child to a movie they will not remember.  I guess when (if) I become a parent I will understand.  At least the couple took turns taking the child out of the movie.  Even after this I can see myself as a dad/mom.

        After the movie Mike and I went to his friend's Chris and Barry ...  errrr...  Gary (ROFL) for dinner.  fresh organic green beans, salad, vegetables, pork medallions in an onion and cherry reduction.  I was ecstatic to help cook when a few more guests arrived.  Desert was fresh pear with blue cheese and drizzled with honey.  The flavors were amazing together.  I also brought my home made coconut encrusted chocolate truffles.  If I am lucky enough to be invited back I will take my white chocolate anise truffles.

         While the onion and cherry sauce was reducing we sat around and talked.  Just chit chat.  It was a very relaxed night with new people I would like to get to know better.  Oh, and wine.  I don't drink wine, but I partook.  Very nice red wine and an amazing dessert wine from Erie.  I spent much of the time smelling the wines.  One red was typical sour grape smelling, the other had a mustiness that actually reminded me of my yard a bit.  I just took in the fragrance and realized I was sitting in my garden.  Sitting in the bed of Trillium from last year.   The whole night was just amazing.  It was really fun to watch Mike's face turn beet red from time to time when I said something dirty or when his friends said something funny.  I guess he is not nearly as shameless as I am since I don't embarrass easily.

          I watched the dynamics of Chris's and Gary's partnership.  They were so cute together.  Matched with the fake hostileness saved for company.  I think there were both terrified of me at first, but after about 20 minutes we calmed down and joked freely.  These are the types of events I attended in my late 20's and early 30's.  Dinner with friends and friends of friends.  When I moved back almost everyone i knew had left.  I missed these interactions deeply.

          I pulled the "STAR" card the night before.  The interpretation of the card is something like "the light at the end of the tunnel, promise of a bright future."  I've been in a spiritual and functional tunnel for a few years.  Like the song I'M COMING OUT OF THE DARK.

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