REFLEXES

         It's funny how I feel the need to be extra "butch" in certain situations.  When I am around groups of straight guys I notice how my mannerisms and actions change.   I spit and swear A LOT more than usual.  It seems that one of my reflexes to appear more masculine is to become  a crude thug.  I find this very unattractive in other people.   However, I revert to this when I think I may appear gay to people.  It is a reflex for me to become a Neanderthal when I feel threatened.